Time out Short Essay
Why I postponed Further Digest's issue for more than three weeks now.
Surely not the best performance of my energy management. Yes, I had the time. Fingers on keyboard, my eyes closed. My heart was excited, but my body was not.
I made three drafts in three weeks, but nothing seem good enough to be shared. A person once said: done is better than perfect. Yet these drafts are crafts. Less than perfect would have zero value for me.
The fluctuation of cases in every shift at the hospital was costly.
Some days I left the hospital feeling full, some days totally depleted.
Some days disappointed, some days wondering.
Some days learning, some days confused.
I am reminded that in order to limit the chaos in life, I need a time-out.
Bargain with myself that I don't owe anyone anything. Comfort rest after a long fight is needed. Again, I quote Jordan B. Peterson as a solace:
You need to know who you are, so that you understand your armament and bolster yourself in respect to your limitations. You need to know where you are going, so that you can limit the extent of chaos in your life, restructure order, and bring the divine force of Hope to bear on the world. You must discipline yourself carefully. You must keep the promises you make to yourself, and reward yourself, so that you can trust and motivate yourself. You need to determine how to act toward yourself so that you are most likely to become and to stay a good person. It would be good to make the world a better place. (Page 73) *
Permit yourself to refresh and replenish, in order to fight again tomorrow. You don't owe anyone anything; you owe no one but yourself.